And the tears fall down like beautiful waterfalls

from my eyes. Everything that could have gone wrong did. I am useless, I am unwanted, I am not needed. I don't know what gave me the courage, I don't know what gave me the hope, but it had false pretenses that just ripped me in half. I have a huge aching in my chest, like an air bubble, it is painful and it won't die down. It just gets bigger with every breath I take. No one will love me, no one can. He made me ugly and everyone can see through my fake face. The ugliness of my past confronts them and they run. I have no one to talk to because you are never there when I need you. I lost you somehow over this past year to other people in your life. You leaving left me with no one to turn to. I sit in my room alone, night after night. I stare at the computer on my lap, lifeless. I stare at the tv for hours trying to fall asleep, and it leaves me like a zombie. I just want somewhere to belong; someone to belong to. But I know now that it won't ever happen. Rejection just tears me to pieces, even when I say it won't and I try not to let it. I can't take this. I can't pretend it doesn't hurt like hell. I just want- I don't even know what I want.

I could scream it!

That I like you, that I find you and you're corny jokes amazing. Your smile makes me smile. But it doesn't matter because you will never know. You're clueless and I'm hopeless. End of story. Cue curtains.

Fin.